semi-hiatus T^T

I'm very sorry to anounce that I will take a semi-hatus for the time being. I know I promised to be a better blogger in my new years resolutions and stuff, but as the exam period approached, and I've spent the Christmas break travelling instead of studying, I need to work now.. Hard!
Also, I don't have many pictures to update you guys with. Since 1,5 month I have beeni fighting a chronic virus eye infection. It seemed to be a conjunctivitis at first, but then resulted to be a virus infection that keeps on passing from one eye to another. I have it more or less controlles now, but I'm still resistant to wear lesnes for more than 3 hours and I have only one pair left - had to throw away all that I wore before being sick, because the virus might be on them! So I'm left only with my last pair of Crystal Greys.. Fortunately I had a new un-opened pair that I opened as soon as doctor allowed me to wear lenses again <3 But yeah, my Princess Mii sesame gray, huge pink ones and GEO nudy blue are bye bye :(
In two weeks the period of exams should be done, and I will try to update as soon as I can. Promise the pictures are coming!

Mikołajki!

Today is a really nice day. 6th of December is Saint Nicholas' Day, which is celebrated in Poland by giving small gifts to your friends and family, usually sweets and little souvenirs. To me this day has always been an official start of Christmas preparations!
Since the morning you can hear the Christmas songs on the radio and chocolate Santa Claus (saint Nicholas) are just everywhere!

Even though we are all old asses already, together with my university classmates we had decided to continue the school tradition for 6th of December.. Yes, we did the invisible friend! ^_^
For our professors to not feel left out and stuff - we gave them chocolate Santas *^^*

Here are the gifts I got this year:

- hello kitty mirror with small comb and gingerbread hand warmer at the university
- chocolates (there's been more but I left them in my secret sweets shelf xD )
- new publication about Barcelona that I've been waiting for!

I swear my dad has a talent to get new releases.. This book has been release yesterday and I've already had had it today at 7am.
It's kind of a tourism guide about Barcelona, but much more emotional. Includes anecdotes and own stories and experiences from many places, it's said to be written with a really nice language.. The author is a General Consul of Poland in Barcelona so surely he is a diligent person and knows the city well.. Can't wait to read it and walk the routes again when I visit barcelona in the end of the year!

I love reading alternative tourist guides and walk the routes seeing the places I know so well in a totally different logjt.. It's as if.. As if I were seeing all of those places for the first time. Reborn. New. Fresh. Same, but so different.

Fast update!

Hi there my lovely readers :D

I'm so super ultra busy with my studies these days I can't even.. Hardly made time to post up the nail decals review from the last post!
Guess I'm not the best blogger in the world.. ^^

Now that I'm back to the real world where I have to study, university comes first, together with some other real life issues :) however I've managed to download the blogger application for my iPhone (I know I'm soooo slow) so hopefully I can make more short updates from my phone! (trying it out now!)

Do you remember my wishlist from the last post?
Well one of the positions came true on my birthday.. I got to eat some awesome Japanese noms!

aaanddd...

I went with my parents to eat out at Hanami, one of them Japanese and sushi restaurants here in Poznan.
Rest of my wishlist dreams should come true by the end of the month though; I'm going to visit my boy in Barcelona on 27th of December! ^__^

Few days ago I bought myself new HOT HOT shoes.. Maybe some of you have already seen them on my twitter? Well I found them on sale and even though I'm currently broken i just had to get them! They were only 59zl, which is about.. 12€? CHEAP.

Super shiny sequin pumps from Quazi, a brand that works with Anja Rubik.

I had to try them out immediately ^^ easy and half-formal outfit from that day;
blazer: Stradivarius
t-shirt: Forever21
belt: Shana
shorts: random;
shoes: Quazi

I love ginger ale! Why is it soooo hard to find in my country T^T

Okay I should go back to studying. Of this thing works then maybe I can update more often!

P.S. So, apparently, Blogger app works really good except for one thing.. It posts the pictures randomly in the end of the post.. Had to edit it on my laptop.
Any tips how to post the pictures in the place where I want them from the iPhone Blogger app????

bye bye teens.

Tomorrow is my birthday.. So those are technically my last hours as a teen!
And I totally HATE IT.

I never wanted to grow up, since I've been 17 I kept on wishing the time would stop and I could stay young.
But guess it's not possible..

The numbers switch and I'm entering twenties. I'm lucky either way, born in the end of November I'm one of the last people born in 1991 to celebrate their birthday :)

I hate my birthday for many reasons, and my birthday this year is probably going to suck not only because I simply would like TO NOT HAVE IT! but also becasue my boyfriend was meant to come here and make me a suprise, which I only was informed about, because eventually due to personal reasons is impossible.. And the plan was so cool, Li and my mu together with one of my best friends (Carol, thank you and I love you!) they planned to take me out party and keep in touch to bring my boyfriend in at midnight.. TT__TT

Lond-distance relationships are so hard. I advice everyone to stay out of it if you still have a chance! :P

Either way I'm going out today because my friends wouldn't let me live is I stayed home!
And here comes the problem..

I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO WEAR!

I kinda wanted to celebrate my birthday with getting myself that amazingly extrely glorious silver Versace for H&M dress but of course I didn't bother to wake up so early in the morning and failed to get it :D
(Maybe that's better, it's not like I could afford it anyway..)

Lately my mood is very bad, and looking at the pictures I decided there are some things that would definitely make up my mood!
(Except for shopping of course :D)

Here is the top 5:

5.

Enric Rosich macarrons! OMG they're the best in the whole world.. The raspberry one is amazing. When I buy them and the box is over, I just die a little inside. ^^;

4.

Hanging out in Barcelona city center.. Just makes me feel nostalgic. The best city in my world. Place that has definitely change my life and where I will always go back..

3.

LOTS OF GOOD ROLLS AND SASHIMI.


2.

Party in Sutton!
I miss this club, the memories, the parties, the drunken nights, with the best people, with my friends, the time of our lives. Just moments, careless, carefree stupid and crazy, reckless and fun. Crazy ideas and bad consequences.. Yet still I have no regrets for each night spent there..
Many people met, even more forgotten.. Some friendships just for the party time, and some that may last for life.

1.

That stupid boy.. I love you, idiot <3

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Anyone willing to grant me something from my top5? :D

The make-up issue

Yes, I love make-up.
I doll myself up almost everyday.
BB cream, blush, eyeshadows, eyeliner. Fake lashes.
Circle lenses.
Lip gloss. All of it to make my eyes appear bigger and dolly-like, my lips full and kiss-eable.

I style my hair, wear extensions, sometimes even a wig.

Does that make me fake? Platic?
Does it really mean I'm ugly underneath it all?

I'M NOT.

I am not ugly and I do not consider myself as such. Quite the opposite, I know I am naturally pretty - maybe not an amazing "oh-wow-what-a-beauty", but pretty.
Is it bad I want to make myself look even prettier?

No one blames girls who wear high heels that they're fake, because their legs are not as slim as they appear.
No one blames girls who wear clothes that suit their body type, to hide their imperections.
Quite the opposite, everyone is encouraged to.

So why is the face a problem?

I love my face. That's why I want it to look as I like it too look.
I don't have troubles with self-acceptance; BUT I have a problem with feeling naked.

Going out with no make-up is like going out with underwear only for me.
My totally natural, bare face is not just for everyone. It's only for people who are the closest for me, who accept me. Being totally natural is being totally vulnerable. It shows every little spot on my skin that proves that I' worried. Every little bag under my eyes, that shows that sometimes I'm just tired of all of it.
Why should it be visible to just everyone I pass on the street?

My make up is my shelter. It makes me feel more secure and condifent.
And I gladly strip out of it when I'm with people I love and trust.

No one tells me to show my naked body in the public, why they want to see my naked face?

Make-up doesn't make you fake.
The only thing that can make someone fake it their personality.

But if you still consider me as a "faux", just because I know how to do make-up and have the guts to pull it off, then yeah, ok.
I'm fake.
But being fake I am still prettier than you.

And just one more thing: beauty is not only the outside.
It's so much more about your inside. About accepting yourself and knowing how to improve yourself - not only physically.

And I am doing better and better with it every single day.

news & memories :)

I *NEED* to get myself back to blogging! Last weeks I spent in Barcelona were extremly busy, spending time with my friends, partying, shopping, just hanging out, eating. With my boyfriend, enjoying every second we still had together before the separation. At my workplace, where everything got busy and complicated after the manager left - and I didn't even get my vacation.. I was meant to go for a weekend to Andorra with my boyfriend but in the end I was working till the day I left Catalunya..

When I got back to Poland I had to visit every single member of my family, get my insurance back, get my cellphone contract.. And a new cellphone!
Since few weeks I'm a happy owner of an iPhone 4! (and yes I know I got it right before the 4S got out, I don't really care honestly XD)
I got it in white :)

My straps - David Villa t-shirt / screen cleaner to show off my love for FC Barcelona; omamori which says "yume" that I got at Kinkakuji when I first went to Japan in 2008 to make me believe in my dreams and never give up on them, because this little thing is a proof of one of them coming true; and cute strap ice-cream to sweeten up my lonely life, hahaha.
Picture of my man on the bakcground of the phone, because I just miss him that much ^^;

My Korilakkuma cover! It's the cutest thing ever, haha, but I think I need to get new one in some time, because, as you might notice around the ears area - the drawign is coming off :( but well, can't expect too much from 2.5$ + free shipping cellphone case XD

I LOVE my iPhone for picture editing applications it has got! Well, I love it for many applications (Angry Birds FTW... Lol, but seriously I love Viber and WhatsApp only because of them I haven't gone bankrupt yet and I'm able to chat with my bf and my friends just as if I were with them!).
You take a picture and you can edit it directly on the phone then snap! Facebook. Hhahhah. I love the effects made by Chinese app called 美图秀秀 (Mei Tu Xiu Xiu). The effects are really cute :)
Here are some pictures edited with MTXX:

Looks good, doesn't it? ^^



Ok, what's more.. I guess even more important than my iPhone.. Haha..
I've officialy started the University!
I'm first year student of Japanese Studies at Adam Mickiewicz University in Poznan..
I'm not sure yet if I'm happy about it or what. I used to REAAALLLYYY want to get into that major. I've been studying for my IB exams like crazy just to get into japanese studies. And then when I did.. Suddenly the satisfaction wasa gone. Like, so, yeah, this is it? No magical booom, no fireworks?..
So I left for a whole year to Barcelona to rethink my life and stuff like that and now I'm back in the sam point that before, because I couldn't find any other way to achieve what I want.
So far my classes are kinda boring and we have to work a lot (like 6 pages homeworks and shit). Hopefully it will just get better as our level advances :)

My study materials, haha..



Today I went with my mum to the countryside to close our summer house and walk around the forest with our dog for some time, getting fresh air and stuff. The weather was really nice today! It's been raining past few days but today it was sunny and just a bit cold.

Although basically I'm a city-lover, once in a while I like to escape away from the noise and pollution and relax closer to the nature. I've spent a lot of time in my childhood in that forest, so going back brings a lot of emotions :)

Talking about memories, I still have a lot of pictures from Barcelona that I will upload once in a while. The Barcelona period of my life is not over and will never be over.. Already making plans of getting me back to that city I love.

I just found today some pictures from a summer day in Barcelona when I went to La Maquinista with Amelia and my boyfriend.
I was tired and my hair was shit after work.. But it was still a very nice day!

First we stayed at UDON though to get some food!
I ate my favourtie Green Rolls, gyoza and edamame <3

Then we took the metro to get to La Maquinista and get into a shopping spree in Forever 21 <3

Please forgive my shoes but those were only flats I had and my feet rebelled against wearing heels after work..

Then we saw Farggi cafe with.. icecreams! God, they were sooo tempting we couldn't resist!

I got raspberry-mango sorbet and dulce de la leche :)

Then I left my boyfriend because I found the love of my life :D

We wanted to get married, but somehow it didn't work out.. I still regret it.


I hope this kinda long post makes up for my long abstence! I promise to post more now. ^^

Oh God, I've been soooooooooooooooooooooooo busy ltely! With friends and Dad visit for my last few days in Barcelona, planning a romantic last weekend in Span with my boyfriend that eventually failed, because of some complication at work, packing up my life, going back to Poland (of course half of it sick ^^ I caught a cold that changed into a virus throat infection that evoluated into bacterial infection that started to attack my pulmones - I'm the best pokemon when it comes to evolution of illness) and starting my University..

I'm officially a Japanese Studies major now, finishing my first week of lectures ^^ I kinda enojoy my course but my life is soo boring now! No more parties every day, no more nice weather, no more going out wit my gal friends :( everything is back to normal, and I miss the sun, and I miss my friends and the smiles we shared.. And most of all I miss my boyfriend. I have some issues and can't seem to fall asleep alone easily anymore...

All of this mess should explain my terrible abscence :D However I have some stuff coming up! :) It's been almost 2 months since I'm using Skin79 VIP Gold BB Cream and I want to share my opinion with you guys; I also have some new make up supply and still a lot of pending posts about BARCELONA!

Hope my life in Poland will get more and more interesting and colorful with more pictures to share.. My University building is probably the ugliest and least interesting Uni building in the whole universe but maybe nice lectures can make it into a nice place.

ALSO I've almost forgot!
Since I'm not working at UDON anymore, I can do my NAILS :D Can't wait to grow them longer and make them colorful and crazy sick again...