bye bye teens.

Tomorrow is my birthday.. So those are technically my last hours as a teen!
And I totally HATE IT.

I never wanted to grow up, since I've been 17 I kept on wishing the time would stop and I could stay young.
But guess it's not possible..

The numbers switch and I'm entering twenties. I'm lucky either way, born in the end of November I'm one of the last people born in 1991 to celebrate their birthday :)

I hate my birthday for many reasons, and my birthday this year is probably going to suck not only because I simply would like TO NOT HAVE IT! but also becasue my boyfriend was meant to come here and make me a suprise, which I only was informed about, because eventually due to personal reasons is impossible.. And the plan was so cool, Li and my mu together with one of my best friends (Carol, thank you and I love you!) they planned to take me out party and keep in touch to bring my boyfriend in at midnight.. TT__TT

Lond-distance relationships are so hard. I advice everyone to stay out of it if you still have a chance! :P

Either way I'm going out today because my friends wouldn't let me live is I stayed home!
And here comes the problem..

I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO WEAR!

I kinda wanted to celebrate my birthday with getting myself that amazingly extrely glorious silver Versace for H&M dress but of course I didn't bother to wake up so early in the morning and failed to get it :D
(Maybe that's better, it's not like I could afford it anyway..)

Lately my mood is very bad, and looking at the pictures I decided there are some things that would definitely make up my mood!
(Except for shopping of course :D)

Here is the top 5:

5.

Enric Rosich macarrons! OMG they're the best in the whole world.. The raspberry one is amazing. When I buy them and the box is over, I just die a little inside. ^^;

4.

Hanging out in Barcelona city center.. Just makes me feel nostalgic. The best city in my world. Place that has definitely change my life and where I will always go back..

3.

LOTS OF GOOD ROLLS AND SASHIMI.


2.

Party in Sutton!
I miss this club, the memories, the parties, the drunken nights, with the best people, with my friends, the time of our lives. Just moments, careless, carefree stupid and crazy, reckless and fun. Crazy ideas and bad consequences.. Yet still I have no regrets for each night spent there..
Many people met, even more forgotten.. Some friendships just for the party time, and some that may last for life.

1.

That stupid boy.. I love you, idiot <3

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Anyone willing to grant me something from my top5? :D

The make-up issue

Yes, I love make-up.
I doll myself up almost everyday.
BB cream, blush, eyeshadows, eyeliner. Fake lashes.
Circle lenses.
Lip gloss. All of it to make my eyes appear bigger and dolly-like, my lips full and kiss-eable.

I style my hair, wear extensions, sometimes even a wig.

Does that make me fake? Platic?
Does it really mean I'm ugly underneath it all?

I'M NOT.

I am not ugly and I do not consider myself as such. Quite the opposite, I know I am naturally pretty - maybe not an amazing "oh-wow-what-a-beauty", but pretty.
Is it bad I want to make myself look even prettier?

No one blames girls who wear high heels that they're fake, because their legs are not as slim as they appear.
No one blames girls who wear clothes that suit their body type, to hide their imperections.
Quite the opposite, everyone is encouraged to.

So why is the face a problem?

I love my face. That's why I want it to look as I like it too look.
I don't have troubles with self-acceptance; BUT I have a problem with feeling naked.

Going out with no make-up is like going out with underwear only for me.
My totally natural, bare face is not just for everyone. It's only for people who are the closest for me, who accept me. Being totally natural is being totally vulnerable. It shows every little spot on my skin that proves that I' worried. Every little bag under my eyes, that shows that sometimes I'm just tired of all of it.
Why should it be visible to just everyone I pass on the street?

My make up is my shelter. It makes me feel more secure and condifent.
And I gladly strip out of it when I'm with people I love and trust.

No one tells me to show my naked body in the public, why they want to see my naked face?

Make-up doesn't make you fake.
The only thing that can make someone fake it their personality.

But if you still consider me as a "faux", just because I know how to do make-up and have the guts to pull it off, then yeah, ok.
I'm fake.
But being fake I am still prettier than you.

And just one more thing: beauty is not only the outside.
It's so much more about your inside. About accepting yourself and knowing how to improve yourself - not only physically.

And I am doing better and better with it every single day.

leather pants

Some time ago I made a purchase that I wanted for quite a some time, but always thought it wouldnt' fit me.. Evetually I found a model that fits me and I really enjoy wearing it.. Those are..

Black leather pants!

They look really cool and go well with various outfits. Even with just a normal t-shirt they still look good. I loved havng them last two weekend, when I've been travelling bac and forth to Barcelona, back to Poznan, then to Berlin.. Cheap airlnes how just 10kg luggage limit to I was happy to have a cloth that can create many outfits. Same with Berlin, though I went with a train, I just took a small suitcase with me - because come on, it's just one weekend! And I had t go to class in the morning with the suitcase then take it directly to the train ^^

This is my shopping from the leather pants day:

The only thing I dislike about those pants is the fact that when it's like really cold outside they get sooo cold and it's hard to warm them up again. But I can manage, I don't even stay much outside so it's ok :)

On the first day I wore it to the uni, together with Forever21 loose stripes sweater, pink handbag and nerd glasses :)

From few other times that I've managed to take pictures of, I wore it for a party once:

(kinda satisfied with the volume of my hair, he he he :D)

Also I made a look for JYJ concert with those! HAhaha ok I know I am a hopeless fangirl <3

This one was taken in Barcelona, way way wayyy before the concert started, when I just echanged my tickets for the bracelet ^^

Have I already mentioned how amazing was the concert? Both of them.
God, their lives are just.. Unforgettable. Breathtaking. Incredibly funny. Tear-shading. Perfect.
I don't regret any cent ever spent on them - and that would make a small fortune, considering the fact I own all o their cds, dvds, most of their singles (I mean everythign since their Korean debut as DBSK back in 2003), some photobooks and other official items, as calendars etc.. Been a member of Bigeast for 3 years and.. Yeah all the money spent on concerts.. Since 2007 there hasn't been a year I haven't seen them at least on a-nation ^^ Of course seeing them was just one poit of the journeys I made but still :)
(and Japanese tocket prices are just SICK..)
<3 Ok back to the real world. Probably all of you are already sick with my leather trousers haha. But there are 3 more pictures left ^_^ Some days ago I went with my childhood friend Misia to Malta Lake in our city.. And we have re-done the "photoshoot" we did like 6 years ago.. same people, same place. Different styles, better looking, haha :)

How do you like them?
Hot or not? :P

P.S.
Check out that crazy shit!

Halloween :)

Last weeks were just too busy and crazy to be real.. On Friday 28th of October I went to Warsaw and, after some adventures, such as evacuation of the airport xD, I flew to Barcelona to see my boyfriend and my lovers - JYJ. The weekend was sooo wicked, with meeting friends, going to the concert, meeting friends, all the time wit my boyfriend.. came back on Tuesday night, had 2 days of classes on Thursday and Friday and Friday after class I caught a train and went with my friends to Berlin. Another frends, another parties, and another JYJ concert! Came back yesterday morning and went directly to the class from the train station ^^;

I will prepare a post about the Berlin trip soon, right now I want to show off my cute Halloween Zombie Li to you!
For the Halloween I went with my friends first to the before party at my friends' flat, where we did your make up, and then we went to the Elephant Club Barcelona. Following pictures are form Elephant club webiste!

I'm off to study kanji now, will do another update about Berlin and concerts soon :)

suprise :D

I have a small suprse to all my make-up crazy readers!

Till 28th of February you can get all products on KKCenterHK with 10% discount!

All you have to do is use the coupon code while you place your order :)

The code is BLGB434DR10

Have some nice shopping, girls!
:)